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| i am taking a break from my homework to examine the pit in my stomach.
i want to know what the hell is wrong with me. a few days ago i was so happy. last night i was happy, in fact last night was amazing. it was wonderful to talk, to spill my soul without reprocusions of any sort.
i guess what is hurting is that i hurt someone i love. that i do care about. my carelessness has caused pain, which is not fair. i should do things with more intention, not do things half-assed. but im fucking human. im not perfect. i would never try to use someone especially sense i know that has already happened to them. i am hurt that this person would think that i am or ever would. i didnt mean to hurt her, but at the same time i feel like this is very one sided. i have felt very flaked out on since holly's shower. but i am afraid if i say something it will be viewed as a pity party. fuck. we fucking have priorities now. not to say that she is not important, but living is our main priority now.
i have not been on the verge of tears in a long time. last night i cried. on the way to class, during my quiz, on my way home and after. later that night, a couple of times, and now. it still hurts and i am not sure what it is. why does life have to be so complex?
i know this is very obscure...but i just need to write.......needed to release what the fuck is sitting in a ball at the bottom of my stomach. | | |
| In case you havent noticed, im writing on myspace now instead. i just like it better.....so yeah. hit me up on there.
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| Class, Work, Class, Work, HOME!!!
It is so nice to go home and see everyone...the only thing I have to complain about is that we have to squeeze so much social stuff into the weekend. Lets see....thursday, went to the One-Act competition, Hill-Murray and Anoka went on! I didnt see the whole show, but what I did see was amazing. Kennedy did a great job! Maybe I should write a play....a one act would be best, length wise. Anyways, saw the show, went out with Jake, Heather, Jen and Megan, quick mcdonalds trip, went back, picked will and nico up, then we hung out with nico and jen....
Friday was Jens birthday.....
ill finish later | | |
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